helping those experiencing grief & loss to return to their natural state of being
"Peace comes not from the absence of conflict, but from the ability to cope with it."
-- Unknown Source
Feeling peace, feeling Loved.
I am submerging in love on purpose. Believing that ultimately that is what we truly seek. There is this feeling of submerging , in a still, warm , body of still water,loud noises filtered out, gently closing your eyes ,and feeling the sense that you are one in being with a large vast body of water. The feeling of oneness. Submerged in love.
Waiting for blood results to come back at Dana Farber Cancer Institute, so I can move forward with another treatment of eribulan ,a chemotherapy that will be a part of my journey till Cancer becomes resistant.
Then hopefully there will be another tool in the toolbox.
Birthdays come and go , but this year, I felt a sense that In some way it was a victory! I made it!
Surprised by my husband , we enjoyed family, friendships , in a room full of love! Again feeling submerged...
Birthday cake made by my sons wife Danielle, Dan and his passion for barbecue , with love being the ingredients, made for a delicious and wonderful celebration of life. My son Andrews presence, Erin and Mike face timing, Grandchildren snuggles ,and immense Joy, these are the moments that make life glisten with magic!
As my physical body changes, loss of feeling in my fingers, loss of hair again, energy at a new normal. I am recognizing that moment to moment is all we have...
I have had the time to wrap my head around where I am in reality to the physical experience.
My spirit self , is able to witness gifts and feel the beauty of this realm of being. There is Dark, fear, which creeps in, but my my bearing witness to this emotion, recognize it and put it away, No , saying Yes to what is Love.
Finding for now , just dwelling in this space.
Another treatment done!
Grief is a tidal wave that over takes you,smashes down upon you with unimaginable force,sweeps you up into its darkness,where you tumble and crash against unidentifiable surfaces,only to be thrown out on an unknown beach, bruised, reshaped...Grief will make a new person out of you,if it doesn't kill you in the making.- Stephanie Ericsson
Completely bruised, completely reshaped by this unimaginable force , I can completely relate to this feeling of a tidal wave redefining your life and your physical body.
I begin again redefining my thoughts my body and my life. I often remind myself ; I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me.... It reminds me to plow thru and just recognize fear, smile back at it and just keep on going.
Been thinking a yoga class would be a focus for me to
Reach for. One day , baby steps put my yoga clothes on. That felt good, anticipating going to a class. Nervous about moving back into community and finding my way to the mat again, heck if I just lay down , that's a huge step. Moving thru the feeling of being nervous about going , I realized it felt good. Deep breath , I made it. I continued my class and just did whatever came up in each moment. Just like life and allowing things to just unfold. Trusting in the moment. Before I knew it , the class was over, I did it and felt so happy with myself that another part of myself was back. Yes as I rehabilitate my body things have changed, letting go of what was and being so grateful to just be present in that moment. My physical body , to breathe , as simple as that, gave my mind a sense of peace! Breathing with community . It's the little things. Cooking, finding and connecting with the things that bring joy. Always seeing thru the joy of grandchildren. How they are such teachers of pure joyful energy. Seeing in there smiles the Beauty of pure spirit energy! Allowing all the love surrounding me to receive it breathe it in and allow the space for healing! Chemotherapy for now is a part of my life activity, and I accept that . As I sit here again waiting for my treatment I am feeling at peace. Standing up to Cancer after the tidal wave of Cancer crashed down on me , I am for now standing brushing myself off and accepting who I have become.
One day, one moment, breathe and breathe out, reminding myself over and over , I am ok.
I believe the powerful spirit Yoga brings into one’s being creates a presence of healing, wellness and peace.
My own unforeseen health challenges gave me a deeper appreciation for a place of personal knowledge and intimate control of body and mind.
A dual diagnosis of multiple sclerosis and breast cancer lowered my resistance and all but obliterated my stamina and energy. But, a chance encounter with yoga and an inner desire to recover revealed an opportunity to "seize the day!"
Today, my passion is for sharing the healing power and presence of mind and spirit that yoga brings, especially to those in the midst of grief and loss.
I live in Hanson, MA with my husband Bob and our dog Felix, and am so fortunate to have our three children and three grandsons close by. For 35 years, Bob has run the Magoun-Biggins Funeral Home in neighboring Rockland. Until my health challenges interfered, I coordinated aftercare offerings using my certification for anxiety and depression training.
My experience through nine years of difficult treatment in the healthcare system, followed by my physical and emotional healing has inspired me to share with others the practices and disciplines that helped me recover.
My program, seated, in a chair introduces therapeutic breathing and trauma sensitive meditation practice. This modified yoga program allows one to cultivate a more positive relationship with their physical body through mindfulness, This program provides a sequence that reaches out to anyone, a gentle safe place to connect to, even for a glimpse of time, an experience of stillness, a calm place where all healing begins.
A rich understanding of the connection of mind,body, spirit, weaves together theory, research, and personal experience of grief and loss and becomes an indispensable resource for those that are suffering, funeral directors, staff, and anyone else looking to rediscover the natural intelligence of our healing bodies.
The experience of Grief and Loss can leave people deeply and profoundly wounded, depressed, anxious, and feeling disconnected from self. To fully heal from such trauma, a connection to self, must be made. Overcoming Grief, Loss, and the agony of pain, connects oneself back to their body,and moving towards a more centered place of being.
Other programs explore the characteristics of grief sensitive yoga practice that can be incorporated by funeral caregivers, crematory and cemetery staff. Training that can be applied to aftercare programs,that enable them to reach out and in their communities for integrating yoga- based interventions for building grief senstive outreach.With awareness there comes a choice. And so you are able to say, "I allow this moment to be as it is" And then suddenly,where before there was darkness, there is now a sense of life and peace.
I’d love to discuss with you how I can help your organization incorporate meditation yoga and breath work into aftercare programs.