helping those experiencing grief & loss to return to their natural state of being
"Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace, and gratitude."
-- Denis Waitley
Finding Happiness is surely something that sometimes takes effort , hope , and rekindling your spirit, when darkness and fear seems to become overwhelming.
When I observed my CT scan and was diagnosed with Metestatic breast cancer,
I felt completely paralyzed,frozen, darkness slowly crept in .
In that moment my senses were no longer.
I did not hear anything beyond what was being shared with me by the doctor. My instincts were paralyzed , my gut , my heart, my spirit felt as though they were blanketed by darkness.
We were blindly led down a hall of fear to receive a chemo treatment that truthfully ?
I know that saying yes to was completely decided out of fear.
Trial drug that for four weeks made me feel like a zombie, adding to the fear and darkness that hovered over me.
Meditation , prayer, my family, was the only hope for me during that time.
Even in prayer , there were times I felt a sense of disconnection to my spirit. For me that was a sense of feeling completely empty and as though there was no hope.
For me I couldn't speak without crying.
From my first diagnoses,
Eight years ago , three chemotherapy's radiation,
Have kept myself and my family always holding on to hope.
After three weeks of the first trial , I had a CT scan and found that my cancer was still spreading.
Taken off the trial, because it wasn't working.i could feel the tumors throughout my body, some giving a lot of pain.
Looking for second opinions, and reaching out for help, spiritually ,
We began to feel that is this a time to move to comfort care. Was this gods plan?
Wow, this for me was a realization that god was so present in my life, to see the gift of spirit becoming flesh, a miracle.
It for me was an eye awakening as though I was forced to open my eyes to see the Hope and life , miracles in my life.
Reflection , meditation , prayer, I now
Recognize that sometimes it is up to us to open our eyes on purpose to see that light that even if it's a glimmer of hope to find it and follow it! Pink bracelets
Showing up everywhere , offering Hope and stregnth.
Seeing the pure LOVE of my family shining so brightly giving me stregnth.Kristen Merlin from the voice singing to my family to offer hope , laughter and a memory that we together will never forget.
Cancer is a horrible disease that effects too many people. I stand on the shoulders of those that have died battling the darkness . I offer prayers to those living with crippling life altering diagnosis.
For now , I choose to live in each moment with exeptance of my reality.
I am able to move forward with the strength and belief that I can choose fear or choose love!
I am feeling so much love penetrating through my bones. I am going to fight no matter what, I can do all thinks through god who strengthens me.
I believe in miracles.
For all that are diagnosed, or battling this horrifying disease , I pray for you.
I remind myself in every moment. "In this moment, I am ok." This moment is all we have! Love , Grace, and Gratitude.
More Than Conquerors
God gives us dreams for the future, but sometimes those dreams can seem impossible. That's when fear starts to set in.
If you are determined to never give up on your dream, then you have to take chances, you have to be courageous. And you need to understand that courage is not the absence of fear; it is pressing forward when you feel afraid. So when you face situations that threaten or intimidate you, you do not need to pray as much for the fear to go away as for boldness and courage so you can move ahead in spite of the fear.
The spirit of fear will always try to keep you from going forward. The enemy has used fear for centuries to try to stop people, and he is not going to change his strategy now. But you can defeat fear, because you are more than a conqueror through Him who loves us.
I want to encourage you to be determined to face fear when it comes against you. Stand firm, trusting God and knowing He is always with you.
Prayer Starter: God, even though I might feel afraid, I believe Your Word, which says that I am more than a conqueror. I can accomplish every dream You've given me because You love me and give me the victory.
"Your imagination is your preview to life’s coming attractions."
-- Albert Einstein
Going for Cat Scan which will read if trial drugs are working , today I will imagine a miracle !
Hope is the opposite of dread, and a close relative of faith. When we have faith in God, it leads to hope, and our outlook on life and the future is positive.
HOPE And DREAD
It's been a while since I have written, I have been trapped in fear and and lost a sense of hope. So many challenges , symptoms that have completely transformed my physical body on so many levels. Radiation has help pain in my pelvis and sacrum but has left my digestive system wondering what is happening?
My right arm which at on point I was told . I may lose feeling in it , has only left me with neuropathy in my thumb , index finger , and my middle finger. My right arm is filled with lymphatic fluid up the arm into my right breast..... Lymphodema I am told. Compression vest , arm sleeve, an hand compression to help fluid map out new healthy lymph nodes to move fluid thru in time.
From diagnosis to radiation to trial treatments , then two days of seeing my therapist for lymphatic drainage . I have not had a moment to wrap my head around what this means for myself and my family.Mothers day at my sons, Erin flew home to be with our family , which was such a gift. Pictures with family and grandchildren smiling ear to ear but crying my heart out, wondering if this is my last. Pictures don't pic up what's really going on I must say.
Dans Birthday , at his home. Happy special day, but still holding on to is this my last with Dan. That day Pam Murphy, and Cathy Stewert , along with Bob and Dan and A group friends of Rockland , presented me with a basket of #christinebigginsstrong.
Wristbands. Overwhelmed by the support and thoughts and prayer that in that moment lifted me from Dread to Hope,
I am ever so grateful.
The prayer has exploded on my Facebook page and everyone that wears one must know how happy it makes me to feel so supported! No I am not alone. In so many ways it has taken me and lifted me knowing that right now there are only one set of footprints!
Hope and prayer can manifest more than human spirit will ever know.
My daughter Erin has been proactive in moving forward because she to is gene positive. Doctors have found a
Spot on her breast and with hope and prayer I am holding her with me . She will be proactively going in , July second for mastectomies , in Hopes that she can move forward long before this Cancer has a chance to manifest in her body!
Erin Kelley Russo ,
I am carrying you on my shoulders ... Love is Grace, and Grace we are surrounded with!
I believe the powerful spirit Yoga brings into one’s being creates a presence of healing, wellness and peace.
My own unforeseen health challenges gave me a deeper appreciation for a place of personal knowledge and intimate control of body and mind.
A dual diagnosis of multiple sclerosis and breast cancer lowered my resistance and all but obliterated my stamina and energy. But, a chance encounter with yoga and an inner desire to recover revealed an opportunity to "seize the day!"
Today, my passion is for sharing the healing power and presence of mind and spirit that yoga brings, especially to those in the midst of grief and loss.
I live in Hanson, MA with my husband Bob and our dog Felix, and am so fortunate to have our three children and three grandsons close by. For 35 years, Bob has run the Magoun-Biggins Funeral Home in neighboring Rockland. Until my health challenges interfered, I coordinated aftercare offerings using my certification for anxiety and depression training.
My experience through nine years of difficult treatment in the healthcare system, followed by my physical and emotional healing has inspired me to share with others the practices and disciplines that helped me recover.
My program, seated, in a chair introduces therapeutic breathing and trauma sensitive meditation practice. This modified yoga program allows one to cultivate a more positive relationship with their physical body through mindfulness, This program provides a sequence that reaches out to anyone, a gentle safe place to connect to, even for a glimpse of time, an experience of stillness, a calm place where all healing begins.
A rich understanding of the connection of mind,body, spirit, weaves together theory, research, and personal experience of grief and loss and becomes an indispensable resource for those that are suffering, funeral directors, staff, and anyone else looking to rediscover the natural intelligence of our healing bodies.
The experience of Grief and Loss can leave people deeply and profoundly wounded, depressed, anxious, and feeling disconnected from self. To fully heal from such trauma, a connection to self, must be made. Overcoming Grief, Loss, and the agony of pain, connects oneself back to their body,and moving towards a more centered place of being.
Other programs explore the characteristics of grief sensitive yoga practice that can be incorporated by funeral caregivers, crematory and cemetery staff. Training that can be applied to aftercare programs,that enable them to reach out and in their communities for integrating yoga- based interventions for building grief senstive outreach.With awareness there comes a choice. And so you are able to say, "I allow this moment to be as it is" And then suddenly,where before there was darkness, there is now a sense of life and peace.
I’d love to discuss with you how I can help your organization incorporate meditation yoga and breath work into aftercare programs.