helping those experiencing grief & loss to return to their natural state of being
“We can’t selectively numb emotion. Numb the dark and you numb the light.”
— Brené Brown
Metastatic Breast cancer , when I was diagnosed , in March , had no idea what the diagnosis meant , or how it would define my life , or was I looking at end of life.
Because of the extreme emotions, fullness of love , feeling it to the deepest part of my soul.that which is Light! Light and love... The purest sense of what life is.
There have been many moments of seeing love , and knowing that at one point letting go is part of that journey. Holding on to love so much that the thoughts of letting go are so painful. Holding on letting go.. Light and dark.
Emotional roller coaster!
I was never one to cry for whatever reason, but in a sense the extreme feelings that come with dark , make the moments of light feel beauty , joy, and recognizing the deepest feelings of love,
Feelings of every moment a miracle, I can't help but cry, sobbing. When I cry , it is the blend of light and dark , which in the moments feel love and joy so much that it almost hurts! I guess being a witness to the beauty and miracles of life holding on , letting go. Love till it hurts, light and dark. Mountains and valleys, are all part of
Experience of finding depths of yourself that can not be found without one or the other.
"Peace comes not from the absence of conflict, but from the ability to cope with it."
-- Unknown Source
Feeling peace, feeling Loved.
I am submerging in love on purpose. Believing that ultimately that is what we truly seek. There is this feeling of submerging , in a still, warm , body of still water,loud noises filtered out, gently closing your eyes ,and feeling the sense that you are one in being with a large vast body of water. The feeling of oneness. Submerged in love.
Waiting for blood results to come back at Dana Farber Cancer Institute, so I can move forward with another treatment of eribulan ,a chemotherapy that will be a part of my journey till Cancer becomes resistant.
Then hopefully there will be another tool in the toolbox.
Birthdays come and go , but this year, I felt a sense that In some way it was a victory! I made it!
Surprised by my husband , we enjoyed family, friendships , in a room full of love! Again feeling submerged...
Birthday cake made by my sons wife Danielle, Dan and his passion for barbecue , with love being the ingredients, made for a delicious and wonderful celebration of life. My son Andrews presence, Erin and Mike face timing, Grandchildren snuggles ,and immense Joy, these are the moments that make life glisten with magic!
As my physical body changes, loss of feeling in my fingers, loss of hair again, energy at a new normal. I am recognizing that moment to moment is all we have...
I have had the time to wrap my head around where I am in reality to the physical experience.
My spirit self , is able to witness gifts and feel the beauty of this realm of being. There is Dark, fear, which creeps in, but my my bearing witness to this emotion, recognize it and put it away, No , saying Yes to what is Love.
Finding for now , just dwelling in this space.
Another treatment done!
I believe the powerful spirit Yoga brings into one’s being creates a presence of healing, wellness and peace.
My own unforeseen health challenges gave me a deeper appreciation for a place of personal knowledge and intimate control of body and mind.
A dual diagnosis of multiple sclerosis and breast cancer lowered my resistance and all but obliterated my stamina and energy. But, a chance encounter with yoga and an inner desire to recover revealed an opportunity to "seize the day!"
Today, my passion is for sharing the healing power and presence of mind and spirit that yoga brings, especially to those in the midst of grief and loss.
I live in Hanson, MA with my husband Bob and our dog Felix, and am so fortunate to have our three children and three grandsons close by. For 35 years, Bob has run the Magoun-Biggins Funeral Home in neighboring Rockland. Until my health challenges interfered, I coordinated aftercare offerings using my certification for anxiety and depression training.
My experience through nine years of difficult treatment in the healthcare system, followed by my physical and emotional healing has inspired me to share with others the practices and disciplines that helped me recover.
My program, seated, in a chair introduces therapeutic breathing and trauma sensitive meditation practice. This modified yoga program allows one to cultivate a more positive relationship with their physical body through mindfulness, This program provides a sequence that reaches out to anyone, a gentle safe place to connect to, even for a glimpse of time, an experience of stillness, a calm place where all healing begins.
A rich understanding of the connection of mind,body, spirit, weaves together theory, research, and personal experience of grief and loss and becomes an indispensable resource for those that are suffering, funeral directors, staff, and anyone else looking to rediscover the natural intelligence of our healing bodies.
The experience of Grief and Loss can leave people deeply and profoundly wounded, depressed, anxious, and feeling disconnected from self. To fully heal from such trauma, a connection to self, must be made. Overcoming Grief, Loss, and the agony of pain, connects oneself back to their body,and moving towards a more centered place of being.
Other programs explore the characteristics of grief sensitive yoga practice that can be incorporated by funeral caregivers, crematory and cemetery staff. Training that can be applied to aftercare programs,that enable them to reach out and in their communities for integrating yoga- based interventions for building grief senstive outreach.With awareness there comes a choice. And so you are able to say, "I allow this moment to be as it is" And then suddenly,where before there was darkness, there is now a sense of life and peace.
I’d love to discuss with you how I can help your organization incorporate meditation yoga and breath work into aftercare programs.